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letters to myself

by Kara Levchenko

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1.
thank u 02:33
First date starts like any other Sitting in my Uber ride Watching buildings go on past Just another Tuesday night Then I see you standing there I’m surprised when you reach for me And we hug and talk and walk all night Weird how great two strangers could be Three months in, my band’s got a gig And even though there’s no one there You ride the metro all alone You show up and I know you care And I start to feel my walls come down ‘Cuz I know I’m safe with you Feeling like a kid again Amazing what our friendship can do I realized you loved me When I could see it in your eyes Hours turn to moments We’re sharing pictures of the sky This thing is sweet, this thing is real It’s scary just how much I feel But when I’m with you all that fear Starts to disappear When I picture future days You’re the one next to me I feel myself hold back sometimes Afraid that you won’t agree But I know it’s worth it if it’s you ‘Cuz something inside me says it’s true Thank you for being you Thank you for being you Thank you for being you
2.
Standing in the doorway, of your temporary room Everyone's back from dinner but couldn’t end the night too soon Now they’re playing kings and drinking things I haven’t had since freshman year And we lock eyes, I realize Neither of us wants to be here Close to midnight and we’re walking down that same familiar street Something ‘bout it feels like home, though it’s only been a week And we’re walking along, talking ‘bout a song that we heard in music class Standing so close, I think I gotta know Will you kiss me, I ask Was it all a dream or did it happen Take me back to the night we met on the mountain Where we sat drinking airplane bottles of whiskey And you told me you don’t know how to be alone So I told you I could be your home Then we’re back in Virginia, but it’s different somehow Who we were last summer feels like just a memory now But it felt too good to just let it go so we try to make it And two years in, I can feel What we had is breaking Was it all a dream or did it happen Take me back to the night we met on the mountain Where we sat drinking airplane bottles of whiskey And you told me you don’t know how to be alone So I told you I could be your home Hardly knew you, but I spend the night in your arms just yesterday And now it’s today So tell me babe Why’d you spend all that time driving’ to see me Just to leave me alone and out of your plan I just don’t drink whiskey like I used to And being alone is better than being with you ‘Cuz there’s no home with you
3.
missing 03:00
I’d say that it’s only a matter of time Before I wash away the fear that we’ll never align But I’d be lying through my teeth if I said that to you No I can’t, I won’t do it again I know what I’ve gotta do Oh heart, don’t fail me now Feeling lonely, don’t know how He’s everything I ever wanted, so Why don’t I want it now I’d love you forever ‘cuz I know you’d do it for me But I can’t shake the feeling that we’re not where we’re supposed to be Now I don’t wanna say goodbye to the only man who’s treated me right But I feel it, I know it, there’s gotta be more Am I missing what all of it’s for Oh heart, don’t fail me now Feeling lonely, don’t know how He’s everything I ever wanted, so Why don’t I want it now? Oh why isn’t it ever enough I’m feeling like I fucked it up He’s everything I didn’t know could be, so Why does it feel like something’s missing Heart, I beg of you please Tell me what do I need Heart, don’t fail me Mmmm
4.
patiently 02:48
Your twinkling eyes, they fill my mind Lonely heart, Is this the start Falling for you, over again Thought you’d left my heart for good, but then You know me better than I do Wish that I could erase you They said, you’d be gone by now I’m waiting patiently Every thought leads back to you Doesn’t matter what I do I still smell your favorite cologne Open my eyes but I’m still alone Feel you fading like the sun Love so real but it’s now it’s done When will it feel good again I’m waiting patiently I’m waiting patiently I’m waiting patiently
5.
ego 02:58
We met on the hottest night Saw you on my screen, figured I’d bite At first you’re charming, say you’re not like the others Then I find out your ex Well, you still love her I knew me before you knew me I hurt me before you hurt me I’m numb to the pain To you, it’s a shame I’m not who I need to be though Like you, workin’ on my ego Ain’t got time to heal you What’s a person to do While we talk I see your eyes shine Got me thinking maybe it’s different this time But there you go again, slamming the door Then I realize I think that babe I’ve met you before I knew me before you knew me I hurt me before you hurt me I’m numb to the pain To you, it’s a shame I’m not who I need to be though Like you, workin’ on my ego Ain’t got time to heal you What’s a person to do You’ve been calling me names Getting tired of your games You excuse it as semantics But I just think you’re manic You say you’ll do better but I’m not sure Can’t do this anymore I knew me before you knew me I hurt me before you hurt me I’m numb to the pain To you, it’s a shame I’m not who I need to be though Like you, workin’ on my ego Ain’t got time to heal you I’m trying to heal me too
6.
hypnotized 03:03
Always starts with something simple No one has to know Stolen glances from across the room, uh oh I can’t wait to see you late I know, I know, it ain’t great But I can’t help it at all No, I can’t tell you I would like to kiss you Up against the wall If only for a night Tell me would you do me right I can see by the look in your eyes That something’s got you hypnotized If only for the night Tell me would you do me right I can feel your lips on mine Boy you’ve got me hypnotized I feel crazy You live rent free in my head for days My heart skips a beat every time you speak my name We can skip all the shit I don’t care what you did But please do it to me Yeah, I should tell you Boy I want you like you wouldn’t believe If only for a night Tell me would you do me right I can see by the look in your eyes That something’s got you hypnotized If only for the night Tell me would you do me right I can feel your lips on mine Boy you’ve got me hypnotized
7.
Fuck you, I love you Hate you, needed you Fuck you, but I love you 'cuz I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you And I fuck you, cuz I love you but I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you Fuck you, but I love you Hate you but I need you I don't even know why I believed in you Text me cuz I need it But then I can't seem to read it My anxiety has got a hold on me You say, fuck you, I hear love you I put nobody above you Even though you're not mine babe I know we got time So afraid I'm gonna lose you All I do is confuse you Back and forth, round and round My logic ain't sound Fuck you, 'cuz I love you but I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you And I fuck you, 'cuz I love you but I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you Yeah, I love you to death but honestly I gotta do best For me, and that's to flee because you got me so stressed You tried to drain of my joy so now I got nothing left So fuck you is what I'll say to get this shit off my chest I needed you and treated you just like the queen of my world I felt like a king having you there being my girl Love had me blinded to the lies that you were weaving my girl So the best thing I can do is get to leaving my girl Call and call, no reply, call and call, why you ghosting me I know damn well true love ain't what this supposed to be But then again it feels so good when you're close to me Now 'cuz of you and what you do I'm losing hope for me You see you had me all caught in your whirlwind Bad memories, good times, all in my mind swirling My heart will never start again until it's done hurting And life has been fucked up from having you as my girlfriend Late night phone calls, give it my all All talk, you stall, we hit a wall Time ticking away, the price we pay You ghost me all day but the you say I needed you Fuck you, 'cuz I love you but I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you And I fuck you, 'cuz I love you but I hate you Where were you when I needed you Said, boy where were you You needed me, why'd it have to be me Said you needed me, fuck you Yeah me, me, me, why'd it have to me Said you needed me, fuck you Man, my main squeeze believe me it isn't easy Being played by the only one who knew how to please me This roller coaster ride we on got me so queasy And it don't make it better when you tell me that you need me Needed me, I needed you Needed me, I needed you
8.
sad boy 03:20
Thought I found someone I could roll with Someone who gets what it’s like to be on their own and shit Holding out for the guy who loves me the way I love myself But it’s hard when he needs someone else I don’t know why You’re the one I go back to in my mind I can see that it was for the best But I still remember when I said goodbye to you Standing on some driveway crying Now what to do People everywhere but to me it’s only you I can’t be the chill girl that you wanted Coming second to her got me feeling all types of haunted I can’t say I don’t care ‘cuz I do I care way too fucking much But it sucks when it’s just not enough I don’t know why You’re the one I go back to in my mind I can see that it was for the best But I still remember when I said goodbye to you Standing on some driveway crying Now what to do People everywhere but to me it’s only you Damn, I shouldn’t have nabbed that, tried to bag that Looking for love, but you lack that Got me in my sad bag You pretending you know don’t me, who does that, nah Really thought we was above it but fuck that, ugh Best believe I won’t be waving the white flag, boy You too old to be behaving like that Shit, I still like you despite that Coulda flagged that Don’t wanna deconstruct that Need my hazmat Starting to see you was just a flashback Thinking maybe I should unpack that Now I’m in my bag about that Coulda been happy but now this a sad track I don’t know why You’re the one I go back to in my mind I can see that it was for the best But I still remember when I said goodbye to you Standing on some driveway crying Now what to do People everywhere but to me it’s only you
9.
new me. 02:22
Don’t come up in here already acting like you know me That bitch is gone, yeah she’s dead, that’s the old me Yeah don’t assume, this a queen, can’t dethrone me Too much to own, yeah you couldn’t even afford me Rich in energy, this pussy gleaming Body tight, mind right So hot I’m steaming Clear and concise You better treat me right ‘Cuz if you don’t I’ll cut you out like a light You can’t control me This is the new me I’m so hot I just love me I don’t need no sympathy You can’t control me This is the new me I’m so hot I just love me I don’t need you, you need me If I’m too much, find less I get it, I’m hard to impress This ain’t checkers it’s chess baby I’m not stressed you fucking with the best Don’t wanna lead you on (you on) If I’m not for you I’m gone (I’m gone) You gotta gimme more, or I’m walkin’ out the door So lower the casket That bitch departed You don’t even know what the fuck you just started Lay her to rest, she a ghost, she dead to me Never seen again, that’s a fucking guarantee You can’t control me This is the new me I’m so hot I just love me I don’t need no sympathy You can’t control me This is the new me I’m so hot I just love me I don’t need you, you need me You can’t control me This is the new me I’m so hot I just love me I don’t need you, you need me

credits

released June 30, 2023

Album Cover - Em Kohl Photography
Mix & Master - Lex Bowler
Guitar - Will Stutzman (thank u, patiently, hypnotized, sad boy)
Bass - Will Stutzman (sad boy)
Co-Writer - Indyah Dixon (fk u, love u., sad boy, new me)
Backing Vocals - Joshua M. Fisher (I don't drink Whiskey), Lex Bowler (missing)
Backing Band - T.M.I. Band (fk u, love u.)

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Kara Levchenko Washington, D.C.

Kara Levchenko is a singer/songwriter with a fresh, yet nostalgic spin on pop. Her unique sound shines through raw journal entries-turned-songs, and angelic soprano harmonies. Levchenko’s debut album ‘letters to myself’ was released in June of 2023 and she is currently at work on her sophomore album. She is influenced by artists like Lizzy McAlpine, FKJ, UMI, Tiny Habits, Laufey, and more. ... more

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